I have been trying to get all the Baby Clothes I have together and go and have a Garage sale with my sister-in law. I cant believe how quickly my kids have outgrown their clothes. I had given alot of their clothes away a couple of months ago and now they they have way more that needs to be gone because they dont fit it anymore and there is no space for their clothes. We had planned to have the Garage sale last weekend but we just got to busy with all of our kids playing soccer. So here is to getting it done this weekend.

The courthouse thing went good yesterday. Hopefully that will be the last time we have to go to the courthouse for a traffic ticket. I hope the hubby learned his lesson and wont be speeding on the freeway.
We also got the tire fixed yesterday. I was super glad about that becuase the smaller car uses less gas and it cost way less to fill it up. Plus we try to use the van only when all of us have to go somewhere.
Ariana’s birthday is tommorow and we haven’t been able to plan anything. Hopefully we can have a little family get together and have cake and ice cream on the weekend for her.

I woke up in a chipper mood. Even though I have a few errands to do I am in the greatest of moods.
I had been stressing put for a while but I have surrendered my worries to the higher power and I know I will be taken care of .

We have Ariana’s Birthday coming up pretty soon and haven’t really planned anything due to lack of funds so hopefully that will remedy itself soon. I dont think It is just us feeling the budget crunch I think alot of people are being affected by it too. I just hope we are able to remedy it soon. I like ot feel secure and when I dont my whole world falls apart.

The hubs and I are doing much better after the long talk we had. Hopefully it stays that way. Communication and trust are the keys to a happy marriage I think.

Umm I would like a maid to permanently live in my house that way my house will stay spotless after I have cleaned it not even an hour ago.

That is all. I just need a maid or housekeeper because I cannot keep this house spotless for the life of me. Back i go to clean up what I had just cleaned. wash rinse repeat.

I have been wanting to try some of the weight loss pills that they announce on T.v but I can’t help but wonder how much they really work and of course I am sure I have to do alot of excersice along with it to really see a drastic change. But I cant help but want to try them out when they show women who look all nice and fit. and most of all skinny. I would be really happy being a size 12 or I would even settle for a small 14.
I just want to be able to fit in the clothes that are in fashion right now. I want to be able to walk around and not have to use my inhaler because I am out of breath.

while waiting for the kids to play their next soccer game I walked around the park. I feel better when I walk. Even though it is not a big workout it is something for me. I need to establish a routine and walking during or after the kids soccer practice is a perfect time for me . My kids are getting excersice and so am I. I need to establish how important it is to be healthy. I have tried to find ways to lose weight quickly and many times have considered taking diet pills as my quick solution but how long will it last? I need a whole lifestyle change and slowly but surely I will get there. Changing my lifestyle will asure me that I keep the weight off and not yo-yo with my weight like I have done so many times.

I have been having some issues with my hubby. We have not been communicating like we need too. After much thoughts about it I had a nice talk with him last night and hopefully me opening up to issues that bother me and him letting me know some of his, will help us get back that closeness that we have as of late been letting go. I love him dearly but lately I had not felt as close to him and that is never good in a marriage.

I have been stressing out alot and that is never good. I need to surrender my worries to a more higher power and believe everything will get taken care of .

uughh I hate getting so upset but I can’t help it. I can’t believe my family sometimes. I just need to take a breather and relax. I need to surrender my anger and think positive and meditate and help out my cousin as much as I can. At least he has got me in his corner and whatever he may need I will be here to support him.

One thing that has really bothered me about my family is that they have always been hush hush when it comes to family members having problems. I hate that instead of getting together and helping one another, they like to sweep the problems under the rug and act as if nothing is wrong. That we are one perfect family which we are far from. I have distanced myself away from them for this reason. I have been witnessing one of my cousins battling a drug and alcohol addiction and instead of sending him to drug rehab they try to make excuses for him and basically deny he has a problem. I have voiced my opinion about him getting some help and I have been told that it is not my place to say anything. How dare they tell me such shit. If they dont care enough about him to do something then forget them .I care and I am going to get involved and see if I can find him more information on drug rehabilitation for him.I dont want to lose my cousin to drugs he is younger than me and has his whole life to look foward too .I can’t believe these people they make me so upset. How can they sit back and do nothing .

I have been having some weird vivd dreams. I usually don’t remember my dreams but these have been so realistic that when I wake up I ask myself did it really happen or what. I have been dreaming of weddings and I have been dreaming of friends having babies and weather disasters which makes me a little bit scared. I always wonder if that last few things you are thinking about before you go to bed have anything to do withwhat you dream ?
Oh among all those dreams I have had a few naughty ones … lets just say I have woken up with a smile on my face with those ones.

We had a family memeber come down to visit and everyone is planning to go to the beach. I feel so self concious at the beach that I dont even bother to trying to wear a bathing suit. I just dont get in the water as much as I want to. I have started walking but I dont always commit to it. I was also looking at pills for diet maybe to give me that extra push. I know weight loss is about a lifestyle change and that is what makes it hard for me too. I get so upset about my weight but I need to be more stronger and stick to a diet plan or something and I never do. I need to have a strong will and do it slow . walking helps but I need to watch what I eat too.