I dont know what is wrong with me sometimes. I think to much about what others might think about me. Like if I look like a big slob to others because I am overweight. I know sometimes they are irrational thoughts of mine but sometimes I think they aren’t because I see the way other people look at me with disgust. I will admit that I sometimes look at myself with disgust too.

I have looked online for any kind of diet pills that work and I have tried some inthe past but as soon as I stop taking them all the weight comes back. I have tried changing my lifestyle of eating but I always go back to eating the foods that are not healthy for me. I know I have to make a permanent change for myself and for my kids but sometimes it is easier said than done. I just hope i have the strength to actually find a way to stick to it this time