You know I dont want to sound like a bad mom but on some days if it werent for the boys personalized bracelets there would be no way I could tell them apart. I feel so wrong for not being able to tell them apart. When they were first born one was fuller than the other and I was able to tell the difference but since they have gotten bigger they both weigh the same and it is really hard to tell them apart.

My cousin gave me a few personalized baby gifts at my baby shower and they were the best. I use their blankets all the time. I just wish I had more items that were personalized.

I am going to start practicing driving behind the wheel. I hope that I can learn and quickly as I only have a week to practice before my driving test. Thinking about me getting behind the wheel also made me think about getting a term life insurance quote online. We dont have any good life insurance and if anything were to ever happen to us what would happen to my kids.

I know it is kind of morbid to think like that but I rather have my kids be ok if something were to happen to us than to not. What works in our favor is that we are young and dont have any big medical problems to worry about other than my back problem.

I really need to think good thoughts and pray. I know I will be ok I just need to get rid of this fear I have of driving cause I need to know how to drive.

I swear I feel like I am back in high school with my face breaking out all the time. I dont think I broke out this much in high school actually. I cannot believe it but one of the pimple breakout I had even left a scar. I am simply to old to be dealing with this I say . I have a preteen who is going through this I know I shouldnt be going through acne breakouts along with her. I feel like even the best acne treatment out there wont help me. I am sure something will but I am feeling so helpless and feel like a teenager going through that awkward phase through puberty and I shouldn’t be feeling like that.

Speaking of which my child is going through the teenage phase and I am feeling so old and not only that but my body feels like it is getting older and I feel more aches and pains that I didnt feel before. I need to rejuvinate my self . I am starting to go walking in the evenings with my sis in law and plan to keep it up. I am also watching what I eat a bit. I am not ready to go cold turkey and give up my sweets but I eventually will.

I have been running around like crazy getting things done for Ashley’s school today. The I got into an argument with the cellphone company because their cellphone service keeps dropping my calls and sometimes the stupid phone wont even work. It either freezes up or it will not let me make any calls. I have had to call them I dont know how many times but I am getting sick and tired of it . I wish I was not under contract with them so I could move on with another company that would take the time to listen to my complaints. I guess I am going to have to deal with it because I am under contract but as soon as it is over I am leaving that stupid company for good.

Geez here I am chatting and the time has past me by I gots to get ready to go. I will write a little later.

I have been so stressed out that I have started overeating to make up for it . How am I going to lose weight if I keep sabataging my own efforts. I tell myself that I am not going to eat past a certain time and come late night all I can think about is sneaking downstairs and eating something sweet.

I started walking with my sister-in law but that lasted all of one day.I need to get back into a routine and actually stick with it. I have thought about taking Fastin but I am still deciding I just need that little extra push to get me going. You would think that my back pain would be enough to jump start the healthy lifestyle but I can be as stubborn as a mule.

Tommorow is the start of a new day lets see how it goes.