I have never been very materialistic. I do have this thing for purses but I could live with or without them. when my hubby asks me if I like jewelry I always tell him that while I do like it, its not neccesary for him to struggle to get it for me. He has been looking at Diamond necklaces to buy me but I really dont want him to worry about getting me one. I thinke he really wants to save up to get it for christmas but I am perfectly fine without.

I do admit though that if he gets me a diamond necklace I will wear it all the time. Its the thought that counts and it’s the little actions like this thaat make me fall in love with him even more.
We have been married for almost 7 years and I cant wait to grow old with him and be married to him for the rest of my life.

Amoung all the sadness we are going through there has been a little bit of good news. My sister-inlaws sister is pregnant. I hope she has a baby girl cause she already has two boys. I think I am going to ask my sister-inlaw is she is going to need ant help with the baby shower. I love looking for and buying the baby shower favors. Even if it means a little work to put them together. I will admit though I usually liketo buy them all made.

I am tryin to go day by day in a happy mood because I dont want to let the sadness bring me down. I will not let it get me down. We will overcome this even if it takes a while. I look foward to finding out wether she is going to have a little girl or boy and of course I will post it on here

I am getting all my son’s newborn clothes and the small 0-3 months clothes that they have outgrown and either giving it away or selling it. As I see my sons clothes I sometimes wish I could have had a little girl because I love all the cute baby girl clothes they have at the stores right now. I have always known that they have a better selection for girls than boys. Just the prints alone made for boys are very few. You either get disney characters or cars.

Oh well I tied my tubes so I wont be able to have any more kids but I certainly cant contain the little hormonal pings I get when I see a cute and chubby baby girl. I cant complain though I have been blessed with two twins sons I just sometimes wish we could have had a little girl too.

I cannot express in the right way the grief that I feel or that the family feels from losing someone so special in our lives. Adam jason’s cousin was the star that lit this whole family. He was the compassionate, the loving, the unconditional person that everyone turned too.

I cannot recall the emotions that overcame me when we got the news on tuesday. I had all the raw emotions that were left from losing my mother. I cant shake this sadness and I am trying to think of other things and trying to go through our daily life but It’s hard I feel like a zombie.

Every chance I get I try to go through the boys toys and see what they dont use and give it away or donate it to some of the kids in t.j. I cannot believe how many toys these kids accumulate throughout the year.

I like the kids to have educational toys so those I havent given away but I did give away a few toddler toys that David outgrew. This was of course before I found out I was pregnant with the twins. If I would have known that I would have kept them.

I am trying to think of another theme for the boys room. Right now the boys have a cars theme but that is getting too old . I would love to put some nice decorations on their wall since it’s so bare. I havent really put up any decorations in their room since we moved into this house.

I just need to take one thing at a time cause I overwehlm myself all the time. I think I will do the boys room first, then the twins and last I will let the girls decide how they want to do their room