I am going to start walking again. I am gonna slowly working my way into jogging and running. I need to do something about my weight. It has been bothering me alot lately. I hate that my clothes are starting to fit tight on me. I am going to dig out my running shorts and start slowy and just work my way into a routine.

I think it will be easier when the kids start school and I have more time for myself. This week and next week will be hectic for me. I also want to go to college and take some college courses or sign up for vocational school. I need to find something to do. I am giving serious thought to medical billing or pharmacy tech.

I want to find a career that I will strive in. I just dont know what career that is right now.

I have to take my oldest kid to get her school I.d today and buy her gym clothes and I still have to finish shopping for the other two kids. Itwouldnt be so bad if this house stopped falling apart. It seems that all I have been doing lately is paying ot fix something or another in this house. Right now the dishwasher broke. Last month the kitchen faucet broke and the toilet broke.

I am so ready to get a job or go to school. I need a distraction from the daily stresses of life. I also need to get back on track with my excercise. You dont even want to know how much weight I have gained. I really need to learn to stop eating so much junk food.

I have been running nonstop since last week. The kids are starting school soon and I am thinking of either doing Online Schooling or enrolling in college and taking a few classes. I am getting to the point where I want to have a career or something to do when the kids are away at school. I dont want to just sit at home doing nothing.

I have been rattling my brain wether to take my general ed classes and go for a college degree or should I take voacational training and get a certificate in something? I need to give it some more thought and decide soon since college enrollment is going on right now.

We are headed to vegas to pick up my sister-inlaw. I am excited to go get her but I am not excited at the thought of the hot weather we are gonna be in. It is over 100 degree over there. This is gonna be a quick turn around trip and I know the hubby is not gonna like it.

I wish I wasnt so scared to drive the freeway. I would be able to help him drive that long drive if I wasnt such a scaredy cat. maybe I will try practicing when the freeway or highway is not so busy. I really need to get over this fear and just do it. it not cool to be 30 and scared to drive the freeway.

Its no lie when people say bad things happen in 3. First the car started having problems which we still need to fix. Then the kitchen sink broke yeah . Yeah it cracked and broke and now it has to be replaced. Then one of my kids locked the door to one of the rooms and there was no way we could get in there so we had to break down the door. This week has not been good to me at all.

Luckily I have been looking online and have been considering a Kohler kitchen sink so that solves one of the problems. The car is going to have to wait til I can get a little bit more money. The door we might have to replace also but for right now I just glued the wood together.

I really hope the rest of this month goes smoothly. I cant have days like this going on or I will fall apart at the seams.

Today like all these days lately i had to run around the house to get things organized. I also had to drive to the salon to see how much it will cost to get ashleys hair done. As we passed the salon I saw the costume store getting set up and I cant believe that in a few months Halloween will be here. I want a sexy costumes this year. I hope to have lost sonme weight so I dont have to settle for the ugly costumes they have for plus sized people.

It going to be real fun shopping for costumes for the twins. The girl want to be princesses so that easy and I am not sure what the boys want to be. I better start shopping for their costumes soon if I want all of them to be dressed up for halloween. Last year the twins were pumpkins. I wonder what cute stuff they have for them.

I often catch myself forgetting that I am a woman also. Not just a mother not just a wife. I am so involved everyday in making sure the kids are well fed the house is clean and doing loads and loads of laundry that I forget to take time for myself and just have fun. I often find myself placing my children and husbands needs first and my needs last. I sometimes want to pull hair out from the daily stresses of making sure the bills get paid and there is food on the table.

Gone are the days when I could go to the movies if I saw a preview I liked. I cant sit down and read a book without worrying how the kids are doing and making sure they are not getting themselves into mischief. I often find myself wondering when my quiet time will be and at night when I get that quiet time I fall asleep as soon as I hit the bed.

I am counting down the days til school starts and I will just have the 3 little ones at home. I am hoping I can find preschool for my 4 year old as I think it will benefit him as much as it will help me out. As soon as the kids are off to school I want to enroll myself in school because I dont just want to be a mom I want to be my own person too.