I have been eyeballing the ipods for a couple of years now. I wish I could just break down and buy one but everytime I am going to buy one the kids need something or there is something that I need to buy the household. I hardly have time to buy myself anything but thats part of being a parent right.

I am going to try my darnest to save some money and get one this year. I wish there was a contest or giveaway where I could win one. I think that is the only way I will get one because it is going to take me awhile before I can save the money to get one of those Ipod touch ones.

I have been so busy that I feel like I cant breathe. I have been trying to relax and just catch up on reading my friends blogs and checking out strivectin reviews. I know I am too young to be worrying about wrinkles but I see a few already popping up.

I swear in the past few days that I have seen a few gray hairs in my head. I am not used to have all this stress in my life. I pray and hope that things get better. I hope that as the months go by our situation gets better. I am going to try and read a book or watch a movie and see if that helps me relax a bit.

I wish I had the beach closer that way I could go and walk in the sand for a bit.

With the weather being so cold you know my back has been killing me. I cannot stand this back pain and my joints are much worse. You would think by the way I feel that I would be in my late fifties. I have thought about using glucosamine sulphate adn seeing it actually relieves some of my joint pain.

I have tried prescription pain killers as well as over the counter and so far nothing has been working. I hope I can find a solution because I dont want to be in this kind of pain forever. My uncle says that I would feel less pain if I weighed less and while I am sure he is right it is not so easy for me to lose all this weight that I have gained.

I know my uncle only says what he think is best but sometimes I dont want to hear how much weight I have gained although I know its true. I am still trying to lose weight. I have cut out sodas and next I am going to try to cut out sweets. Cutting out the sweets is going to be the hardest part for me.

My face has broken out again. I have a huge pimple and even though I ahve used all different types of face cream it still wont go away. I am not sure why I am breaking out so often but it is annoying the living daylights out of me.

I havent even been eating as much candy as I usually do. I think i am going to have to go to the dermatalogist soon if my face doesnt stop breaking out. I am mnot a freaking teenager anymore. I might want to look as hot as a teenager but i sure as heck dont want my face breaking out like one. Ok I shall step off the soapbox now.

Have I wrote on here about how much I have gained weight since I have had the twins? Most people lose weight after having their babies, not me I gain weight. I know alot of it has to do with me eating everything that I cant during my pregnancies and during the holidays last year I stuffed my face so I cant really complain because I did it to myself. I fro one sure cant tell others how to reduce belly fat because I dont even know.

I really need to get on some kind of diet because even my big clothes are fitting me tight. I cannot and will not go past the clothes size I already wear I refuse to buy clothes that are bogger than what I already have. I wish I can friends that lived close to me so I could workout with someone. I need someone to motiviate me. I need a partner in crime

In my endless quests to find jobs or things to do I came across information on how to get bpi certification so that I can save money from all the energy we are using now. I have tried many ways to save energy and go green and this bpi certification really caught my eye.

You dont even want to know how outrageous our bills have been. I bet alot of it has to do with all the people we have in our house too. I cannot tell the kids enough to turn off the lights when they are not in the room and I have to constantly be turning off the t.vs that they leave on and just walk away.

I am really thinking of implementing a day where we will try not to use any electricity and see how that goes. I want to save moeny because I know during the summer the bills will be outrageous.

When the weather is so blah I wish I could escape to one of those Outer Banks beach rentals and just read a book and lay down and relax. I dont get to relax much and I think that is exactly what I need. I really need some rest and relaxation.

I hope I can go to the movies with my honey and just chill.I really havent had anytime to spend with the hubby because by the time he gets home I am exhausted beyond belief. I am hoping that when he gets a few days off we can at least have a quick getaway.

Our birthdays are coming up soon so I hope we can at least plan something then. I am going to be the big 30 and I want to have a party even though I doubt that will happen.

I had my daily dose of gossip that I like to read and one of the things that sounded fishy to me is the way that the Brittany Murphy’s husband sounds. I dont know but to me he seems like he would be fishing for all kinds of life insurance leads way before Brittany passed away. He just seems shady I dont know what it is but I am able to look at a person and tell when something aint right.

Anyways I have been so bored lately. I want to get out of the house even if its just to go to the store to buy milk. I am going to see if I can go on a quick getaway and watch a movie. I have been wanting to go see Dear John but I just havent had the time to go see it. I really need to schedule some time for me to just chill and relax.

Oh in other news I think I am going ot go to San Diego this weekend for a friends baby shower. I am going to have to go and pick something nice for her.

I feel so bad when I sit at home thinking about how horrible or unhappy I am at the moment and dont realize that people have it much worse than I do. I was at home sulking because I couldn’t get a quilted blanket I want and then I wake up this morning and hear that Chile had a areally bad earthquake. Here I am complaining about a freaking quilted blanket when I am sure all they would want is some sort of heated blanket to keep them from being cold.

I can be so selfish sometimes and it’s sad that it took for me to see the news to realize that I had been moping and complaining because I couldnt get my way about buying a quilt that I didnt really need. I am glad I stopped dead in my tracks and realized what a big baby I was being when there is bigger problems is the world.

I wish I had a nice jogging stroller or just a stroller in general for the twins. They are getting older and want to be looking around and not be in the baby carriers I bought. If I could have my dream stroller or jogger it would be the Baby jogger city select. Have you seen what that stroller can do? I love strollers that you can add things too.

I have come to the conclusion that I am a gaget and gizmos kinda girl. I love electronics and I like new gadgets. I wish I was a billionaire because that way I would be able to buy all those gadgets and gizmos I see. I dont know how long its been since I have been wanting a apple ipod. I always say I am going to get it but there is never enough money to get it. I always make sure we are ok and have the stuff we need so there is no extra money to buy the items we want or would like to have.