I keep trying to look for a job out here and it is slim pickings. My hubby keeps saying we should move again. He thinks if I look for a house for sale louisville ky might have more jobs than there are here. I am not so sure about wanting to move. He is the type of person who likes to move around every so many years. I am the type of person who likes to pick a place and stay put. It takes me years to get adjusted to a place.
I wish I was the type of person who was not so stuck in her ways. I tend to over analyze things and I have to have things set in order. I am thinking that I am a little obsessive compulsive when it comes to certain things in my life because I had such a unstable childhood. I also think that my hubby’s flighty attitude has a lot to do with his childhood too.
I think with his wanting to move and with my wanting to stay we are both not getting anywhere and I am still without a job. I am hoping this new year will bring me a job instead of having to think about relocating somewhere else.
I am starting to get a little stressed out with getting the rest of the family their Christmas gifts. I have most of the kids done. The older ones are the gifts that I still need to buy. These teenage girls are getting harder and harder to shop for. I used to be able to get them gifts that didn’t leave me broke for the rest of the year.
I really need to find a job quick if the girls keep wanting expensive gifts and wanting me to buy them clothes all the time. I miss when they were little and didn’t care if I bought their clothes at Walmart or target. Now they want to go to the mall and get stuff that is way over my budget. I told my oldest that she will pretty soon be able to get a job and be able to buy those 60 dollar designer jeans but this momma’s budget doesn’t cover pants that pricey. I really hope it is just a phase that she is going through right now.
My baby girl is getting ready to be in this year town Christmas parade. She did it last year and loved it and now she is going to be at the front of the line walking with her marching band. Although she wont be the one with the giant beat ride she will be either holding the banner or perhaps waving one of the flags. She wanted to be one of the people playing an instrument but this year she didn’t get to.
I cannot wait to see my baby girl shine. I love her enthusiasm and her never giving up attitude. Even though she is the shortest one in her class and most of the students in her grade she sure carries a lot of confidence and tries out for all the activities she can. I hope her free spirit continues on with her as she gets to high school. I love that she is carefree and doesn’t let anyone rain on her parade. Sometimes looking at her makes me wish I was as confident and carefree as she is. I am so proud of my baby girl. I am so proud of all my kids and each and everyone possesses a special place in my heart.
I try to look forward to the holidays for the sake of my children but it is so hard for me to truly be happy. The holidays bring back memories of my loved ones who passed away. All my childhood memories of the holidays were spent with my granny and not having her with me makes it so hard for me to bare. I remember the smell of her home cooking for the holidays. I remember all the decorations she used to put up. One of the last times I saw her she had her tree up and as I went looking at the decorations I spotted all the Christmas decorations I had made her as a child. Here I was a parent now and there were ornaments made by me when I was my child’s age.
I know she would not want me to be soo sad during the holidays but I cant help but think of her and my mom and my auntie who are in heaven looking down upon us right now. I cant help but feel selfish and want them here physically with me. My life hasn’t been easy and I think it would have been less harder if I would have had their guidance.
I seriously hate to get into family debates and especially when we are all together for a celebration. I am hoping tomorrow goes without any problems. I love my family dearly but I cannot stand when we get into discussions and someone gets mad at another person for having differences of opinions.
How many families do you know get into debates and arguments over immigration laws and immigration lawyers I don’t know any other than my family. We can never have a nice conversation without some family member wanting to yell or get mad or throw a hissy fit. I swear my kids act more like grown ups than some of my family members. If they cannot act right today I sure as hope they can act right tomorrow or they will not be spending thanksgiving with my family.
I will tolerate a lot of things but disrupting my kids and having them getting nervous is something I will not tolerate. These folks can take their drama somewhere else if that is the case.
Christmas is almost here and I need to get a move on when it comes to presents. My little guys are easy to shop for since all they want is toys. My nieces and nephews are a little bit harder to shop for. They want anything from a epiphone flying v guitar at musicians friend to an apple ipod. I told my niece that I have been wanting an ipod for myself for the longest time and I haven’t even gotten one. I want a tablet also but I am not holding my breath for it.
Every time I try to save some money to buy myself something nice, I either have to buy something for the car that is needed or fix something that has gone wrong in it or I have to buy a needed item for the house. I guess that is part of being a mom and a housewife. I must admit that at times I wish I could be a little bit more selfish and spoil myself.
I really hope I can find good deals on the things my kids and my nieces and nephews want and maybe have some extra money to get myself something nice this year.
They say that when It rains it pours. I believe the saying is correct. I had all kinds of issues the week of Halloween. Thankfully I think everything is back to normal now. My van broke down at the most inopportune time but luckily I was able to apply from a credit card and was able to put the repairs on it. I worry about the van because I am the one who drives it the most and plus I have all my babies in there. I need to know that my van is in good condition to be able to drive my kids to school.
I still haven’t heard back from the city but I am hoping that the little bit of landscaping that the hubby did is enough for us not to get a fine. I cannot believe how picky this city is about landscaping … I guess that’s the joys of being a homeowner *note the sarcasm* and dealing with everything pertaining to it.
I am hoping I have a smooth November and December. I don’t think I can deal with much more stress than what I have already went through this month.
I have less that 5 days to get the landscaping done in the front yard. I hate having to worry about everything. I don’t even know if I have the right tools that I might need to use to get some live vegetation or plants or whatever the city wants me to have out in the front yard. I cant even order tools if I should need tools because I don’t have enough time. I really hope I can get something done and soon.
I also have to do some research for my uncle about some tool he needs and all he does is tell me go look at reidsupply.com and see if they have it. I do not know what size or what exactly I am looking for but he asks me to find it. I would have thought he would have asked one of my boy cousins since they deal with more tools than I do to look for it.
I also have to worry about getting costumes for all the kids.. yeah I know cutting it close but hey I have been busy a lot more busy than I usually am and the van is in the shop but I will get into those details later. I just have to keep telling myself to breathe and take each item at a time. Its easier said than done though I wish I would have some help instead of me always worrying about everything.
Just got back from Las Vegas. Most would think it was a pleasure vacation but it was for a time share presentation. I figured if we are going to be down in Las Vegas why not catch a show. We went to go see Michael Jackson Live .. tribute show. I loved every bit of that show. I wish I would have had the chance to see a real Michael Jackson show. I might not always agree with the weird things he did or was accused of but I thought he was a brilliant singer and performer.
I grew up listening to his music and bonded with one of best friends because she heard me listening to Michael and singing along and that is how we first started talking. I still to this day play his cds when I am driving. I am a typical 80′s kid who still likes eighties music and artists. I think it was awesome growing up in the 80′s.